TITLE: 'The Beginning And The End' (part 26 of ??) AUTHOR: XSketch (XSketch@hotmail.com) WEBSITE: http://thesketchfiles.bravehost.com DISCLAIMER: See part 1 for all disclaimers. --------------------------------------------------- 'You have to know that this wasn't my choice; that - in some way - it was never even my choice to make. If it had been, you would never leave the sight of either myself or your father, and you wouldn't be reading this letter...I wouldn't even have to write it in the first place! But, as I said, this wasn't my choice, and I have to make that vitally clear to you because I can't bear the thought of you growing up thinking that you were unloved or unwanted. You're a very special little boy, more than you will ever be able to understand, and that made it too dangerous for you to stay with us. Your father and I would die for you, but our fight against the dark forces out there left you too exposed...I had to send you away to unknown people, where you would never be found. All I can do now is pray our sacrifice was not in vain.' XXXXXXXXXXXXX As they left Ogden and pulled in for yet another gas stop, there was one thing Yves Adele Harlow knew they owed a great deal of credit to the Gunmen for, and that was their choice of transportation. Despite the miles that had already been racked up on the dial by the time she and her associates took ownership of it, the old Volkswagen bus had become the most unlikely but reliable vehicle - taking them wherever they needed to go across dusty plains and city streets, with little mechanical fault whilst providing the space required for computer equipment storage and sleeping. After learning that the supersoldiers were communicating with a military personnel somewhere in San Diego, they'd started back in that direction - hoping that being closer to the location would help pinpoint the actual base. Jimmy - still in a mood she was yet to address - remained at the wheel despite her attempts to take over the driving for a change, while Kimmy monitored the computer. At the moment, though, he was sleeping, and that was when the phone call came. Without hesitation, Harlow snagged the receiver up but didn't reply - waiting until she was rewarded a second later by Mulder's slightly hushed voice. "We're leaving now." And before she had chance to tell him they'd stumbled across threads of information that may turn out to be vital to his and Scully's survival - before there was even a chance to ask if they were okay - the line went dead. Kimmy watched her head lower in what appeared to be sullen defeat through half-hooded eyes and frowned. He didn't regard her as a 'hard ass' or 'ice queen' as such, but the woman he'd come to know thrived on pressure and challenges, refused to let failure affect her...and yet-- "I need to get out for some air," she suddenly announced, realizing her companion was awake. "I'll be back in a minute, and then we need to get there as quickly as possible." ~~~~~ Jimmy looked up as the side door slid open, but silently turned his attention back to the gas pump when Yves warily stepped out. "What is the matter, Jimmy?" she sighed, fixing her gaze on him as she slumped against the vehicle. "Being in a mood and not talking about it is not helping any matters whatsoever. We need to be one-hundred-and-fifty percent on top of things... If you're having second thoughts - want to back out - you know you can...I mean, it's not as if--...I don't know...This isn't our job or something we have an obligation to do - as unethical as it may have seemed at times, I had a job that I could quite easily go back to right now. But I saw what that supersoldier did to the police officer - what he almost did to Agents Doggett and Reyes - and in the end I know that we're the only ones they can turn to and that's why I am doing this: to do what's right--" "It's not that," he solemnly uttered, shaking his head. "Then *what*?" He considered her and the genuine concern creasing her features for a moment and then confessed in a hushed tone, "I saw the guys." Of all the things she'd been expecting to pass his lips, that had been nowhere on her list, and Yves had to do a double-take to check she'd heard him correctly. When the words clearly registered in her brain and she saw his head lower even further, she opened her mouth to ask him to elaborate, but he continued without the need of her prompt. "I saw their ghosts...They're really gone..." Harlow faltered, unsure which to query first - the fact he'd doubted the deaths of the Lone Gunmen despite all they'd seen, or about his claim of seeing their ghosts. She'd always thought of Jimmy as a loyal dog, who stood by those he looked up to no matter how foolish or interfering that steadfastness was. But his grieving over the loss of the three geeks was so much more than that - they had been his mentors, for lack of a better term, showing him the true evils that lay out there. With them now gone, she could see in his eyes that he felt as if he was floundering and drowning in a sea of conspiracy and murder and manipulation with no hope of salvation. She took one of his big hands in hers. "Did they say anything?" she asked instead, surprising herself with the sudden need to know and the lump that had appeared in her throat. Bond blinked, stared at the dark haired woman for a beat longer with eyes brimming with unshed tears, and then shook his head. "They didn't say anything...We drove past them on our way out of DC. They were just standing on the side of he highway pointing at a billboard." "What for?" "For some new movie called 'Sibling Rivalry' opening in theatres...uhhh...tomorrow." Yves pondered over his words, searching for any hidden, significant dots that needed to be connected, but then let it go - they were too tired and agitated to make any logical deductions. Hopefully this chat would help clear the air in the bus a little. "Well, I'm sure if they had said something they would have mentioned how grateful they are for us carrying the torch on, and how much they miss us. Don't you?" Hesitation. "Jimmy? You can't keep dwelling on this - we need to move forward if we're going to get anything done or keep their legacy alive," Harlow exhaled. With a resigned sigh, Jimmy squeezed her hand and then returned the gas pump to its cradle. Something was eating away at him, telling him that there was more to what the guys had been pointing at than met the eye. But he couldn't put the pieces together, and if Yves hadn't picked up on it there really was a reason to worry. "Okay," he sighed, hoping that the answers would present themselves before it was too late if, in fact, there were answers to be found. "...Okay..." It was obvious it wasn't as 'okay' as he was making out, but Yves let him leave to pay for the gasoline... The words 'Sibling Rivalry' echoing over and over in her mind. XXXXXXXXXXXXX DULLES INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT WASHINGTON D.C. Tired and believing himself to be well beyond the point of reason, Doggett searched the crowd of faces waiting at the gate as he left the plane, hoping to see a familiar one or one that would at least acknowledge his arrival. Lots of greeting smiles and joyously teary eyes for the passengers rushing past, but none of them were for him and he couldn't help but wish he would catch a glimpse of Monica amongst the furor. Before he had chance to even dwell on or brush away that thought, however, John noticed a solemn, grey-haired man nod imperceptibly when they made eye contact and then turn to slowly walk away. Hopefully there would finally be some proper help. XXXXXXXXXXXXX 'D'you think he feels anything?' 'What kind of stupid question is that? Jeez, come on, let's just collect this stuff and skedaddle before they get back to finish today's tests on him.' 'So, you don't think he knows what's going on?' 'You're one sick fuck, I know that much! Why's it so important for you to know if he feels anything or not?' 'Natural enough question, I figure. With all the drugs they're sticking him with, you gotta wonder how lucid he is. So?' 'If he does, may God be with him, the poor bastard. No one deserves to go through that.' A muscle twitched - fractionally, but movement nevertheless - as life struggled to remain in the body lying on the staircase of the Van De Kamp's residence. Echoes of memories from nightmarish days gone by triggered tiny firings of nerves within the figure's brain before eyelids slowly fluttered open to half-mast. 'I'm your father, Jeffrey...' Fingers flexed as clarity gradually came into focus, but still he couldn't get up. Unbeknownst to Spender, the ghostly shadow of Walter Skinner shimmered into view in the open front doorway and then took several steps into the quiet house - surveying the area with a sweeping glance before finally focusing on the body sprawled across the stairwell. "Oh no," he croaked, quickly taking the steps necessary to take him to Spender's side. "Hang in there, Jeffrey - I've sent for help. Jus--" "Ska!" Skinner's head sharply turned at the sound of the small voice from behind him - only just noticing now the baby seated in the corner of the hallway and reaching out a tiny hand toward him. "Ska!" Without hesitation, the former assistant director ran to the child and crouched down. "William?" The child stared back at him with recognition, understanding and something else Skinner couldn't quite interpret, and in that instant the older man realized how much he'd missed the young boy. "Ska?" The eagerly reaching hand clenched into a fist and then relaxed again as a frown creased William's features. "You...You remember your Uncle Walt?" Without a word, the toddler gave a solemn nod and then put his hand into his mouth, happily slobbering it. "Do you remember...Do you remember your mommy?" Still silent, there was a moment of contemplation and then the reaching digits withdrew to point at his thin crest of strawberry-blond hair. Skinner faltered, unsure if he should ask his next question. Before he'd even had chance to make his mind up, the same tiny fingers lowered to point at his nose. "You remember your dad, don't you?" How was that possible? Mulder had only been there for two days of the baby's life before having to leave. No doubt Scully had repeatedly mentioned the absent father's name and shown the boy countless photos of the tall man so that he would never grow up not knowing there was somebody else out there who loved him as much as she did, but surely expecting an infant to retain that information was beyond the realms of possibility? "Ma-da," William cooed, the frown disappearing from his face as he smiled and tapped his nose again for emphasis. "Ma-da dada!" Clearly Mulder and Scully had created something more special than the realms of imagination could ever possibly conjure up. There was another low groan from Spender, but Skinner couldn't turn - his attention was too drawn to the infant and the pointing finger; an inconceivable ache to touch the baby burning within him. The sound of a car pulling up outside finally does pull him away five silent, intense minutes later, though, and for an instant he feels panic rise within him at the thought that the visitor isn't the person he requested for assistance... That, with a broken and motionless Spender laying on the stairs, only a few feet might be separating William from another wave of supersoldiers. Skinner quickly stood to look out through the entryway. And waited. And when Chuck Burks' figure hurriedly stepped out of the dark-windowed vehicle, he felt himself relax and fade away into the background - William's round hand waving him goodbye as he went. XXXXXXXXXXXXX 'All I can hold onto is the hope that you'll stay safe, and that whenever this is over - when the dust finally settles - maybe we'll see you again...Or, if we have fallen during the battle, you'll understand why we did what we did.' XXXXXXXXXXXXX As the sun peeked above the horizon, the dusty SUV carrying Mulder and Scully passed across the state line into California - much to the male fugitive's relief (the last time he'd visited Oregon he'd lost six months of his life, so it had been no surprise to Scully that he'd wanted to keep their time in the state as short and fleeting as possible). "Why Mendocino?" Dana's voice quietly queried as she watched the 'Welcome to California' sign whiz past them and then turned her attention back to the constantly weaving road ahead. She'd been driving for the past two hours as her partner had rested in the seat beside her, but he was awake again and it was time to finally question the reason behind his plan. "Why not?" he shrugged. "It's as good a place as any to visit." He glanced down at his watch. 6:34AM. Everything was going to schedule... All he could do now was hope Doggett and Reyes had managed to get Maggie Scully to the botanical gardens without trouble. Scully sighed, not sure what else to say. His 'unofficial' wedding vow back at their new home had both overwhelmed her and diverted her attention away from other, darker thoughts, but the pregnancy test results continued to nibble away at her and the return of the dream with William playing in his sandbox last night didn't help. "Stop thinking." The sound of his crisp voice cutting through the silence startled her and she shot a brief glance in his direction as her senses fumbled for composure. Damn him for being able to know what was going through her mind just by looking at her! "What?" "I know what you're thinking about..." Of course he did - it was the same thing refusing to let him be. "I just wish you wouldn't keep it to yourself. No secrets, remember? I just want you to share with me..." He faltered. Was he asking too much of her? She'd already laid everything she had to give in his hands without question, and he hadn't exactly been a role model when it came to not clamming up, so was asking her to give over her thoughts - possibly the only private thing she had left for herself - pushing the boundaries of their relationship too far? "I just want you to let me know what you're thinking." Better to ask than never know. One of her brows shot up toward her hairline, and he felt his blood run cold as panic set in. "I'm thinking I'll be making an appointment to see the local doctor as soon as we get back," she simply confessed, not looking at him as she pulled into the gas station. It was enough to let him know she wasn't shutting him out. XXXXXXXXXXXXX Doggett yawned. Dealing with the jetlag was bad enough, but he and Matheson had been up a majority of the night discussing the MJ file and the supersoldiers' likely agenda in conjunction with it. After four hours of unsettled sleep, John had come to the conclusion somewhere in his addled brain that there was something the older man was intentionally holding back until the last minute. And if there was one thing John Doggett hated, it was last minute surprises. The dark, isolated house was still and silent, so he groggily shuffled into the kitchen to make himself a cup of coffee before the second bout of information overload began. Only to find Senator Richard Matheson already standing at the kitchen window, looking out at thick fog that rolled across his desolate land. "To think this will all be gone in a few short years," the older man idly commented, giving no indication as to if he was talking to himself or had detected the FBI agent's presence. "And that I won't even be here to witness its disappearance... Makes you question the justice of it all, doesn't it?" "I've seen too much injustice go ignored over the past year or so, sir," Doggett remarked dryly, filling a mug from the freshly brewed coffee pot, "so how about tellin' me what you're holding back so we can try get some justice in order?" Matheson shook his head solemnly as the sound of thunder rumbled through the air and rain begun to spatter against the thick glass panel. "You don't have any idea of the magnitude of this - how deep it goes...What lengths they'll go to to--" "They're in the government - I got that already." "You're deluded if you think that's it." Matheson paused and turned his head to look at the agent. "This goes all the way to the president." The mug nearly fell from John's grasp as his jaw dropped to its widest point momentarily. "That's a load of BS!" he challenged, pointing at the older man and readjusting his sweaty grasp on the coffee cup's handle. "You can't seriously expect me to believe for one second that the president is one of these genetically altered beings..." "He's not one of them - he's in alliance with them...He takes orders from them. Think about it. How do you think he's stayed in power for this long despite the high amount of public disapproval?" The older man looked back out through the window. "They control it all, and that's why it's pissing Them off so much that They can't even put an end to the three humans who could bring Their whole battle strategy crashing down around their ears." "You told me that nothing could stop this," Doggett frowned. "That Mulder and Scully could do nothing more than cause mass panic." "That's because They've found a way of worming Mulder and Scully out - a much more earth-shattering way." The agent hesitated before nervously asking, "This is what you've been holding back, isn't it?" Matheson gave a single nod of his head. XXXXXXXXXXXXX "You idiot!" Startled, Mulder frowned as he felt a thin hand wrap around his arm and pull him to a private spot away from the car. "I know you can't help yourself sometimes, but I never would have thought that you'd do something as stupid as this!" He stared at Scully and the palpable level of pissed- offness creasing her features as she stared back at him with eyes that could kill a thousand men with one fleeting glance made him panic. He'd done many things in the past that had warranted her annoyance, but he definitely hadn't done anything wrong since the whole hotdog incident...Had he? "What are you talking about?" he asked innocently. On the up side, this was the most energetic he'd seen her since...Well, since she'd been begging him to take the stand at the mock-up court hearing at Mount Weather. She shook her head in frustration and slammed the dirty newspaper into his hands. "I found that on the floor in the restroom. Made for interesting - if not enlightening - reading while I was relieving myself." As she folded both arms across her chest and cast an inspecting glance around them to check nobody was watching or listening in, Mulder unfolded the paper and looked down at the page, on which was a small report with the headline 'Strange Lights Spotted Above Mendocino - Fact Or Too Much Surf Spray?'. His head instantly snapped up. "I didn't know anything about this," the tall man insisted, raising his eyebrows in surprise. "I can't believe you think I'd really put our lives on the line for a silly little tabloid story." The brow sharply raised. "Okay, okay, I deserve that," he acknowledged in defeat. "But that was then and this is now, and I'm sorry to disappoint you, dear, but I honestly wouldn't do that." His voice trailed off as the unintended anger registered in his ears. Admittedly he was hurt that she would think that of him, but he hadn't meant to become so defensive. There was a moment of tense silence as she stared at him and then down at the paper, biting on her lower lip. It was obvious she was trying to conceal the tears beginning to well in her eyes, and whilst he didn't totally regret voicing his hurt, he inwardly cursed himself for the billionth time in his life for being such a verbally-challenged klutz. "I chose Mendocino for my own personal, quiet and calming reasons," he finished, closing his eyes briefly before turning to put the newspaper into the nearby trash receptacle, "but never that. Especially not now." Dana's shoulders slumped, but she didn't reply or move. Thoughtful, Mulder stared at her half a minute longer and then sighed, "I'll be waiting in the car," as he slowly turned to leave. He'd thought they were back on track to slightly resembling their former selves... Had he really been so mistaken? It took a beat, but before he was out of reach one of her hands quickly snagged the sleeve of his jacket to stop his retreat. He turned back and snatched in a breath as he waited. "Old habits die hard," she tried to quietly chuckle, unsuccessfully. Watery blue eyes lifted to stare at him. "And the 'old' part is still trying to figure out the new..." Deep breath, long exhalation, and then her back straightened so that she could look at him more squarely in the face. "I'm sorry," she finally whispered, letting her hand slip down to rest in and entwine with his. "I should have asked before accusing." "It's not that," he explained. "So much has changed and shifted this past year...These past few years, in fact... I just thought you would have realized that my priorities have as well." "I have!" "Not enough to think I wouldn't go chasing after any ol' lights in the sky." Good point. Her eyelids slipped shut in defeat. "Maybe part of me wanted it to be the issue," she sighed, eyes opening again, "That you'd smelt out a new case and were pulling me along for the ride like--" Her voice cut short to kill the words she was afraid to speak. "'Like the old days'?" Mulder finished for her, giving her hand a gentle, reassuring squeeze. When she nodded, he gave a single nod also. "Well, if it makes you feel any better, I'm still an idiot like the old days." She couldn't hide the laugh at that. "And I'm still excessively turned on by your fiery streak like the old days." That really tickled her, and she swatted him with her free hand as he dove down to press a warm kiss against her forehead. "So, no UFOs in Mendocino?" Dana queried. "At the moment, the thought of living with you in our own place overlooking the sea is too paranormal in and of itself for me to worry about anything else, Sasquatch could come running out of the forest and I wouldn't blink an eyelash." "I guess we'd better get back on the road, then." He faltered. This didn't feel as wrapped up and done with as he would have liked. His smile dropped and he seriously promised, "You come first - *we* come first. Nothing else matters but that." Scully let his honey-sweet voice soothe over the prickles in her temper and then gave a reassuring nod of her head. Maybe it was like old times, after all - they still needed a disagreement every now and then to clean out the cobwebs. XXXXXXXXXXXXX 7:02AM PST Monica Reyes walked down the front yard path to the Scully family's parked minivan with Maggie, reassuring her that everything would be okay. "Somebody explain to me again why we're listening to some FBI agent tell us to go out for the day?" Bill groused, tying up Matthew's shoe lace before ruffling the boy's hair and sliding the van door shut. "Is she our personal advisor now?" "Why don't you just calm down, Bill?" Tara replied from her backseat. "It'll be fun for Matty. We don't get out much as a family as it is." Margaret paused with her hand resting on the front passenger-side door handle and looked up at the tall agent. Her mouth silently worked to find the right words to say, but nothing came out. "Trust me. I'll be there for back-up," Reyes promised quietly so that only the older woman would hear. "If I receive any word or sense that something's wrong, I'll get you out of there straight away." "And you don't know what it is he wants us to see there?" Maggie queried, just as quietly. "All I know is that it's something special." The minivan pulled away two minutes later, and Gibson was already seated in the FBI agent's rental car when she slipped into the driver's seat. "She doesn't know what to expect when they get there," the boy remarked, not looking away from the windshield, "but she's still excited and nervous." Reyes let his words soak in as she placed the key in the ignition and started up the engine. "At the moment we just need to make sure they meet up safely," she replied, glancing at Praise. "We can worry about how she's feeling afterwards." XXXXXXXXXXXXX "As you're aware, tests have been being carried out on ships," the senator elaborated, moving to rest against one of the kitchen worktops. "And at naval bases. What you didn't know is that the government have also been running tests on their armed forces personnel - trying to create true soldiers with superior faculties. Those tests have primarily been focused on Navy and Marine officials, using their water supply." Doggett felt his blood begin to run cold with dawning realization before Matheson had even had chance to utter the words. "Captain Bill Scully Jr's base was one of the ones under the supersoldiers' takeover." XXXXXXXXXXXXX TO BE CONTINUED...